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Thursday, November 12, 2009

Welcome to TXTXL!

sorry i havent updated in so long.
college is crazy.

hope you are all having a good fall :)
it's almost thanksgiving i can't believe it
this year is going by so fast.

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1
I saw him staring at me.
Not glancing, but bluntly staring.
& I wondered if he was staring
at the wreckage he caused or if maybe,
just maybe, he regretted ever
hurting me in the first place.



2
she's standing on a line between giving up
and seeing how much more she can take.


3
if we discovered that we had only five
minutes left to say what we wanted to say,
every telephone booth, every cell phone
would be occupied by people calling
others to stammer that they loved them.



4
they were in love. you could tell just by the
way they looked at each other, like they had the
most wonderful secret in the world between them.

5
To be honest with you,
I don't have the words to make you feel better,
but I do have the arms to give you a hug,
ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about,
and I have a heart;
a heart that's aching to see you smile again.




6
What's not fair is that you act as if your life
has ended. Be sad. Be angry. Shit, be
anything, but don't ever behave so
reprehensibly towards the people who
clearly love you. Have your emotional crisis,
but don't cut them out. Fucking things up
once in awhile is inevitable. But how you
choose to deal with those fuckups is not fated.
You have free will, and be grateful that you do.
Now. Move on, and find a better way of
dealing with your issues.


7
& every time you feel like crying,
i'm gonna try and make you laugh
and if i can't, if it just hurts too bad,
then we will wait for it to pass
and i will keep you company
through those days so long and black.

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8
The best memories are the ones you
can't explain, you just had to be there.
It's those days where we sit around and
 do nothing. It's those moments we cry.
It's the way we look at each other and
know what's going through each other's
 heads. It's those stupid pictures and jokes.
That's the reasons we're best friends.


9
There's a point in every friendship when girls
stop being friends and become sisters.




10
Here's to the nights when I didn't know left from right.
And you were there showing me, not telling me.
Here’s to the nights that went early into the morning.
And yet we were still pouring vodka into plastic cups.
Here’s to the phone calls that you took
Even if they were at 4 AM
Here’s to the nights we took long walks around just to talk
Here’s to the nights when even if I was doing something wrong
With someone I wasn’t supposed to be with, you were still there defending me
Here’s to the nights when I knew you were still gonna be there in the morning
Hung over and laughing about the night’s memories.
Here’s to being my best friend
(even if I wasn’t always at my best)

11
I don't buy into sappy bullshit anymore. I'm
done strapping a smile on my face & calling
myself happy, pretending the sun is always
shining while my pulse skyrockets and my
eyes lose track of all the things I see and
want to be. If nothing else I have learned in
my life, you only have yourself. You only
see what you want and you can only be the
best person you want to be.

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12
This is for you, my best friend. The one person I can tell my soul to, who can relate to me like no other, who I can laugh with to no extent, who I can cry to when times are tough, who can help me with the problems of my life. Never have you turned your back on me or told me I wasn't good enough or let me down. I don't think you know what that means to me. You have gone through so much pain and you still have time for me and I love you for listening even when you're dying inside. And I look up to you because you're strong, and caring, and beautiful, even though you don't think you are. And I hope you know that I'm always here to listen to you laugh and cry and help in all the ways that I can, and I will try to be at least half the friend you are to me. I hope you know I would not be the person I am today without you, my best friend. Thanks for being the friend who's always believed in me, who's always understood, who's always accepted me, who's always cared.

13
Not being able to move on is psychological.
Try convincing yourself that you can, and you will.
But sometimes, even science could not understand what you really feel.




14
Let's play hopscotch in malls.
Let's drive fast with the top down.
Let's turn up the music as loud as it'll go.
Let's put a couch on an island
in the middle of the freeway
and wave at everyone on their way to work.
Let's hug strangers in parking lots.
Let's hand out secret messages at traffic lights.
Let's make lists of all the things that make us smile
and tick them off, one at a time.


15
I'm in one of those moods that nothing is really
wrong in my life, but my brain keeps on insisting
that there is. Or maybe it's my heart thats doing
the insisting. I can't really tell. You know that feeling?




16
If nothing else, I’ve realized who I can count on.
The friends who can read my mind and finish my sentence.

Who call me in the middle of a text message,

or answer my question before I ask it.

Who tell me what's going on in my crazy head.

17
often its the most deserving people who
cannot help loving those who destroy them.






18
We look at each other wondering what
the other is thinking but we never say a thing.


19
Once upon a year gone by, she saw herself give in
Every time she closed her eyes, she saw what could have been Well nothing hurts and nothing bleeds, when the covers are Tucked in tight. Funny how when the light goes out, How she forgets to fight.



20
i'm not supposed to be scared of anything,
but i don't know where i am. i wish that i
could move, but i'm exhausted and nobody
understands. i'm trying hard to breathe
now, but there's no air in my lungs.
there's no one here to talk to when the
pain inside is making me numb.

21
sometimes when you don't ask questions,
it's not because you're afraid that someone
 will lie in your face. it's because you're
afraid they'll tell you the truth.



22
It doesn't hurt to dream, it hurts to wake up.

23
Because nothing sucks worse than feeling alone
no matter how many people are around.



24
Sick to my stomach once again,
I keep remembering I'm just your friend
.

25
Never let anyone fall for
you when you know there's someone
else in your heart and mind.



26
And all she needs right now is for him to wrap her up in his arms,

look her in the eyes, and tell her he won’t give up.


27
I'm crazy about you and I want you to
know that if I had the choice of hanging
out with anyone in the entire world or
just sitting at home with you eating a pizza
  and watching a crappy tv show...
I'd choose you
every time.



28
No matter what anyone says,
i will never give up on you.









Monday, October 19, 2009

Save Second Base <3

1
It`s probably the wrong time to tell you this,
but I just want you to know that if you
ever need me
, I`ll always be here for you.
All
you have to do is ask.



2
I think your heart grows back bigger.
You know... once it gets the shit beaten out of it.




3
Don't ever give up on love,
'cause there is always someone who loves you.
Even if it's not the person you were hoping for.




4
you don’t have time to see if it’s worth it.
Just trust your heart and hope it turns out right



5
All around me, people jump about
with pleasure, but I can’t feel happy
here.
This is a place of ghosts, and I
don’t believe that anything will change
that. I want no souvenirs of the past.



6
Because you're young, you're torn between
a world of hate and a world of dreams.
So much to lose, so much to gain,
so much to fight for, so much to change.




7
People say that the bad memories cause
the most pain
, but actually it`s the good
ones
that drive you insane.


8
It's nothing more than a smile,
but it gets me everytime
.


9
All I'm asking for is
one night together.
Just
you and me. All alone.
And if you can
honestly say you don't
feel
anything for me after that night,
I will finally let you go


10
Somehow life never quite works out
like the ideal we envision.

11
Someday, you`re going to meet someone who
drives you mad. who you`re going to fight with
& laugh with & do totally insane things for;
someone who turns your life upside down.

12
There's nothing a girl wants more than something she can't have.

13
You may think of me as just another girl
in the crowd of many, but I just want you
to know that I'm the one girl in that crowd
that took a single look at you and fell
harder than I ever have fallen in my whole life.


14
So what if I think too much
or if I over analyze things.
So what if I can't eat or sleep...
At least you'll know why.
You're always on my mind.


15
Sometimes, I catch myself wondering
where you are and how you're doing.
I don't think I'm ever going to let you go completely.


16
& Even though I remind myself that
we'll probably never be together...
I still won't let myself fall for anyone else.


17
Never let anyone fall for you
when you know there's some else
in your heart and mind.

18
Sometimes you have to just forgive someone
because you can't stand not having them in your life.

19
If you're reading this...
congratulations, you're alive.
If that's not something to smile about,
then I don't know what is.

20
You know you're in love when you always
want to tell someone about it,
even when they do not ask.

21
sometimes you have to give up on people.
everyone that is in your journey is meant to
be in your journey, but not everyone is meant to stay there.


22
crying over you is just yet another reminder,
that i'll never be completely over you.
that's what hurts the most.


23
i think that falling in love would
be a nice adventure, someday


24
Love is such a simple word,
but I'm glad to be in it with you.
And we can laugh all we want,
I know it's your favorite.
and I'll stare at you all I can,
'cause you...
you're my favorite.

25
You fell in love with someone because
of the tilt of his smile, or because he could
make you laugh, or in this case, because
he made you believe you were the only
one who could save him.


Thursday, October 08, 2009

Don't Slack. Check Your Rack. October - Breast Cancer Awareness Month.

1
If you're willing to chase me,
I promise, I’ll run slow

2
the lyrics to almost every song
remind me of you. how is that,
i cant get rid of you in my head?
you`re the dirty little secret
i don`t tell anyone about :)

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3
every girl would be
dead without her best friend,
i mean really, look at
who`s always by her side, it
sure as hell isnt some guy.

4
you shouldn`t be anyone special to
me; your just another guy, you shouldnt
lead me on, especially if its a lie. one day
its love the next day its done, you hurt
me too much to be the one.




5
every time you hurt me i always say i`m
done with you; that i`m going to move on
and stop talking to you, and every time you
say your sorry, i always forgive you. its like
a cycle that keeps repeating itself.


6
starting over sounds refreshing.
someone pour me a glass.

but this time please make sure its half-full

instead of half-empty




7
if we discovered that we had only five minutes
left to say all that we wanted to say,
every telephone booth would be occupied
by people calling other people to stammer
that they loved him. -- Christopher Morley

8
You just don't understand do you? Every time I talk to you it
gets worse. The little butterflies, my stomach dropping, the
spinning, the feeling like everything is all right in the
world. These never stop. They keep coming back.


9
i
am constantly pushing
away boys who
actually care

because im in love
with one who doesnt

10
Some of the most interesting friendships
are between people who are attracted to
each other
, but can't act on it.





11

I hope you choke on those words,
I don't think it's even
possible
to swallow that much bullshit.


12
When people walk away, let them walk.
Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.




13
tribute to the nice girls:
to the nice girls who are
overlooked ; who become
friends
and nothing more
who spend hours in fixation
upon their looks and their
personalities and their actions
because it must be that they
are doing something wrong.

14
I hate it when
a guy
knows
you like him,
and he
abuses
the privilege

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15
You can't hit a home run unless you step
up to the plate. You can't catch a fish unless
you put your line in the water. You can't
reach your goals if you don't try.

16
There's always that one person.
No matter how long it's been.
Or how badly they've treated you,
if they say I love you..
you will say it back.




17
i just hope one day you see me;
and when you do, your heart stops.

18
It's pathetic how much you used to mean to me.
How much I adored you. How much you were
pretty much my entire fucking world.


Tuesday, October 06, 2009



1
We scream our insecurities,
but mutter our apologies.
And that’s why this world
will always be so wrong.

2
Let's commit the perfect crime;;
I'll steal your heart,
&& you'll steal mine.

3
Love is about being cute & stupid together,
not being in bed together.

4
so just kiss me
and let my hair messy itself in your fingers
and let me steady myself
in the arms of a boy
that wont ask me to be what he needs
but lets me exist as i am

5
All I want is to be falling asleep in your arms,
not caring about anything else in the world
except how I feel right there when I'm with you.



6
All I want is one chance, one kiss,
one night to show you what you mean to me,
one chance to spend the day with you
&& to show you how we're so alike.
one kiss to prove we're more than just friends...
&& one night to hold you tight.

7
Not everything’s easy
You have to push yourself
Cause fighting for something
Makes it more rewarding

8
thinking of your wonderful smile,
keeps me going for a little while :)

9
every girl falls for a bad boy once in their life,
it's because they want to be the one
who brings out the good in them

10
it's sad to think that everything we had was just a lie
and now i realize you're just like every other guy.



11
you confuse me, plain and simple.
the things you say to me,
i don't know what to think.
i wish i could just put everything
together and find that missing link.

12
He's just a boy who doesn't understand what
he has right there in front of him;& she's a girl who
never quite understood how to let go.

13
Something still exists as long as there's
someone around to remember it.

14
You're amazing, you know that?
you see me breaking, falling apart,
so full of hatred, and yet you love me.
You see me crying, weak, & yet remain
unphased. I don't know how you can
love me,but whatever it is i hope it
doesn't go away.

15
She's been hurt many times before this.
You'd think it would be routine by now.
You'd think she wouldn't let it get to her.
But the truth is, she trusted you.



16
A best friend is there when you have nothing
& more importantly when you feel like nothing.

17
He`ll only break your heart, it`s a fact.
& even though I warn you, even though I guarantee
you that the boy will only hurt you terribly,
you`ll still pursue him, ain`t love grand?

18
she smiles like everyone expects her to,
she's living up to the expectation of
never letting anything get to her.
but something's wrong with that smile today.
congratualtions, kid.
you got to her.

19
do you miss him at the most happy
and fulfilling times in your life?
just because you miss him when
the world is quiet and you feel alone
doesn't mean you love him.
you will miss anyone when you are lonely.
it's when your life is going great
and you still feel the ache in your heart
because he isn't there to see the
genuine smile on your face
and happiness in your life.

20
there are going to be times in your
life when all you wanna do is lay down
in the middle of the road during rush
hour. Just know that no matter how many
times you feel like laying there, I
will always be there to stop traffic.



21
I bet you didn't know that I'm
terrified of the dark, & every time
I think of you, I smile. I bet you
don't know that I hate thunderstorms,
but love dancing in the rain, or how
much I laugh with my friends & how
much I truly enjoy being happy. I
bet you don't know how many tears
I've cried just for you, or how much
I doubt myself every day. I bet you
don't know how ticklish I am or how
I can't make decisions & how
it drives me crazy when you look at me.

22
you waited too long. you waited
too long to tell her how you really feel.
she had liked you too, but she moved on.
she wasn't going to waste her time. boy,
you lost her, and you're going to have
to give it your all to get her back now.

23
I thought algebra was hard to get,
but then i met you.

24
"I'm not allowed to fall in love" she said.
"I'm not allowed to care this much" But
when your staying up late, hoping to God
he's tossing & turning thinking of you, its
already way too late for you, babe.

25
talk to her, she's a girl.
the reason she doesn't talk first is
because she has the vision of a boy who
will go out of his way for her.



26
it's amazing how one day,
someone can walk into your life
then the next day, you wonder
how you ever lived without them.

27
There's always something more you wish he'd say

28
Only time will determine when
and how you're going to move on.
Sure, it might not be right away
like you want it to be, but eventually
one day you'll wake up and realize
that somewhere along the way, that
piercing feeling you've always felt
inside your chest faded and went away
while you were too busy living life to notice.

29
I have come to realize that
he's just a guy, a special one
maybe, but he's not mine. I
don't need to do things to
make him love me 
If he wanted to, he would.

30
he knew he made a mistake.
you could see it in his face every
time she walked into the room.
he wished he hadn't done that to her.



31
A clean break is easier. You can reset it and it
heals and you move on, but if you leave things
messy or don’t get put right, then it hurts. Forever.

32
i wish there was a more elegant
way of saying "i miss you"
because it feels so much more
complicated and involved than
just those three words.

33
You wanna know why we cant
be together? Plain & simple:
Because i dont trust myself
with you and idk if thats a
good or bad thing yet...

34
if i ever write a story about my life,
don't be surprised when your name
appears a million times.

35
and I hope it makes you jealous
when you see me holding his hand.
and I hope it makes you squirm
when he hugs me in the halls.
and I hope you stare right at us
when he kisses me and I kiss back.
and I hope you finally miss me
when you realize that I’m over you




36
We`re the kinda friends that if
the house was burning down..
we'd be roasting marshmallows
&& checking out the hot firemen.

37
Just because I try not to talk about it
does not mean that I am over it, that I
feel better, or that I am ever going to be
okay. I just don't want to be a BURDEN

38
That's it.
I'm putting my walls back up.
Never tearing them down again
or letting people through.

I should have never let you in.

39
Did you ever notice that there is always
that particular line in that certain song that
always stands out in a certain way and reminds
you of that one person you can't forget?

40

i'll just bit my lip,
& pretend i've gotten over you.

& if i could tell you one thing,
i guess it would be that i love
hearing your voice, & that
your smile just happens to brighten
my entire day, & those little things
you do without even knowing it.




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